January 2012
7 posts
just gotta keep going I guess.
I am overly critical of others and their oppinions.
sorry.
I lack direction and focus in life. I just keep doing to same thing over and over.
been having suicidal thoughts again recently.
I don’t want to burden anyone but I can’t seem work my way through the basics of life.
My fears are crippling. I’m afraid of failing. I’m afraid of being alone. I’m afraid of being ignored EVEN THOUGH I WON’T OPEN MY MOUTH. I just don’t want to feel anything, I want to not exist.
I don’t want to burden anyone.
I don’t like where I’m at in life right now.
I don’t seem capable of normal social interactions.
I don’t seem to be capable of getting my shit together.
I don’t know why I can’t stop being such a fuck up.
I don’t like the person I am.