going to go to see a counselor on monday I think… I don’t know what I’ll say, what I’ll do… but I really hope that it’ll help

I don’t know whats going on with me, my life, or even my own thoughts. What I do know is that I’m certainly not happy.

I am overly critical of others and their oppinions.

sorry.

I lack direction and focus in life. I just keep doing to same thing over and over.

been having suicidal thoughts again recently.

I don’t want to burden anyone but I can’t seem work my way through the basics of life.

My fears are crippling. I’m afraid of failing. I’m afraid of being alone. I’m afraid of being ignored EVEN THOUGH I WON’T OPEN MY MOUTH. I just don’t want to feel anything, I want to not exist.

I don’t want to burden anyone.

I don’t like where I’m at in life right now.

I don’t seem capable of normal social interactions.

I don’t seem to be capable of getting my shit together.

I don’t know why I can’t stop being such a fuck up.

I don’t like the person I am.